The old road seems shallow as my bent frame tries hard,
Age has fallen upon me and it’s something I can’t discard,
Effort is a consequence of agility lost as i try to avoid rage,
How sad, that just a kiss will take even more effort with age,
I see you in your beautiful past before burdens made you tire,
The burden of me that you carry with love is a lifetime occupier,
I pray you find support from heaven that eases the load you carry,
If only you had known the burden before answering yes to marry,
I dreamed of only you when youth’s blood flowed through my veins,
I dreamed of only you in life as I never sought love from other names,
As you left Heaven’s gates I saw papers that were instructions of me,
Titled “Instructions of He” I strained my eyes in my attempts to see,
Strangely titled it was but easily understood that I was the “he”,
Clad in glowing white as you crossed through, changes I did see,
Your gown changed to a beautiful red as my heart leapt through,
My heart took a leap of spiritual awareness as I could see only you,
I have loved you beyond capacities of past or future men we know,
You have returned such love to only one man as history will show,
The road has become more difficult to walk as falling takes a toll,
Each time I fall upon this path I pay repentance for things I stole,
To steal can mean other things such as a heart or sex without care,
As I age my conscience inflicts more pain of past hurts I’m now aware,
I have not forgotten that love is a contract to share spouses pains,
My sweet angel of Heaven’s gate must endure alone in what remains,
My frame is bent to no longer stand tall as pain removes my stance,
May I suffer twice to absorb pain you must endure even if by chance,
It fills my heart with sorrow as age steels your youth from you too,
Yes, women of heavenly beauty age too, but I’ll always love just you.
The end. By Pat for Patti.
I love you.