My heart beats heavy at times but not an affliction is the cause,

It’s a confused state of mind that injects flummox bringing pause,

The word flummox fell from my mind to show my bewildered state,

Only you can befuddle me so that I used pause instead of hesitate,

If truth is told I used both perhaps misunderstood is where I stood,

Only you can conflict my mind or is infliction to be misunderstood?

Perhaps I’ll drift from this place in search of the solace I once knew,

How can I be in this place as I’ve had a lifetime of comfort from you?

But years have come and quickly passed as they mounted high,

When we married the excitement of a little boy made this man fly,

Excitement that a boy like me was married to the goddess I saw,

From toe tip to nose tip and more I adored the girl without a flaw,

A Greek Goddess it was said had passed her beauty to human you,

Fill you with the sweetness of a candy store but spice your lips too,

So sweet but filled with tart words of fun with a mean streak in full,

Words so strong that once is enough yet you inflict with a bucketful,

So many years ago glee filled my mind as your beauty overcame me,

Truly beautiful through and through and each look gave me more glee,

A six year old filled with candy n’ sodas took over my twenties brain,

Joy of a young man’s heart shared with all went against your grain,

What’s wrong with you that you say those things as if I’m a shiny toy,

My toes tripped on smooth air or was it the tongue of a twenties boy?

A mouth as big as mine must contain a tongue that’s too big to stay,

Once my tongue fills with thoughts words spew forth with lots to say,

Yes I spewed forth words of your beauty describing most every part,

But know each word I said of you was said with love from my heart,

I love you so and always have it seems I was born already loving you,

I first saw you when you were twelve and knew I’d marry you, it’s true,

But true love struck my heart with Cupid’s arrow when I was eighteen,

Every morning since that day my first thoughts have made me gleam,

You were past eighteen a month and a half when you smiled your I do,

That day the heart of no other man could hold the love I held for you,

I vowed to love you forevermore and for over fifty years I’ve done so,

I vow to love you forevermore and in fifty years a century you’ll know,

You will know a century of my loving you and once again I’ll upset you,

Let me say it here and now I will shout out “see her beautiful glow”,

Each day at least three times an hour I feel such need to say it loud,

“See how beautiful her profile is” or other things of you make me proud,

The little wiggle your butt contains or the giggle in your pretty throat,

Throughout the day I say these words from my heart as I do not gloat,

You’re sexy through and through my love, I love you more every hour,

To see you nude today excites me more than during our first shower,

I remember most every night loving you even those that are the same,

From wake to sleep I think of you, I truly do, even at work or in a game,

I know insane is how I sound but it’s the strongest love on earth,

To be the man loved by you has increased to me what I am worth,

Sex pours from your pores when I am near I smell the essence of you,

The essence of you excites my loins I swear there’s nothing I can do,

Imagine being aroused every time the person you love is near,

I’m so aroused every day that if I was a boat only you could steer,

When you lay near with your hip and sexy thigh exposed it’s so hard,

Your curves are the same today it’s very difficult for me to disregard,

You complain when I don’t notice you but you also say too much,

After showering or brushing teeth I always rub your butt and such,

Then jump in bed and see your thigh and curves that arouse me so,

Our time is short so very short, we will wish every second to re-know,

I am lost, I seek lovemaking in form of old yet I know my form is old,

I love our scheduled sex but wouldn’t sexual spontaneity be extolled?

When nude you shake and tease me but if I take the bait what then?

Spontaneity was born of love n’ haste so desire and lust couldn’t win,

Remember when a kiss would ignite lovemaking though we just had?

To start again from a kiss with you was inevitable when with a lad,

Yes once long ago I was a lad although slowed after serving in Nam,

The draft stole away precious youth and what was left is what I am,

I ask you my angel, my darling wife, when last did a kiss ignite fire?

When last I ask of you, did you tease me and expect a kiss of desire?

A kiss of desire followed by a man’s lust igniting fire within loins aged,

I ask when last did you release loins of he whose loins were caged?

Please release the latch in a spontaneous gesture that urges a flow,

Love within your heart is my love and love within me is yours aglow,

You glow of love and only you glow like an angel’s beautiful glow,

My heart can love no other not because of time but it’s you I know,

If asked what is a union? We describe a union of love no doubt,

When asked about sexual union of love, we are what it is about,

To hold your soft hand in mine is a special joy just meant for me,

I love you Patti, please allow sex to flow in a way of spontaneity.

The end. I love you my angel.