At night when I slumber my mind is dreaming of you,

Sometimes my weird mind may have only you or two,

But should I die while in that state know you are near,

In dreams I walk with you in hand and I hold you dear,

In dreams your mine all of the time as Roy always said,

In dreams I’d be loving you so many ways inside my head,

As I wake each morning I’m filled with love from dreams,

There’s only dreams of a deep love state, it always seems,

To remember loving you as if each day is fresh and new,

Puts new love rhythm within my heart yet I always knew,

The moment I laid eyes on you lifetime love came to be,

Since I’ve been loving you deep in my mind I could see,

A dark chamber deep within my mind as CCR played loud,

Thunder bellowed a cannons blare but it wasn’t in a cloud,

A dead soldier fell into my arms as he looked back at me,

He wore my face yet it wasn’t me but it scared me to pee,

I saw a time we numbered five but only I came back alive,

I heard Americans scream loud within the dark I contrive,

Bring back my peaceful slumber I screamed at me so loud,

But Americans cursing loud at us so much, is that allowed?

“Better run through the jungle” plays loud of CCR in song,

That dark hole of memories buried in a place that’s wrong,

John Fogerty wore a uniform so many don’t want to admit,

His music brings combat dreams so hard I may have a fit,

Release this dark hole within my mind to be forgotten I beg,

There’s my happiness picture, you can see shaking of a leg,

Great joy filled my mind to sleep but war memories I’d keep,

Not by choice perhaps by pain of torture I’d sometimes weep,

The concrete floor mixed urine and bowel as I fell into there,

I have reenactment dreams of my angel with long dark hair,

If not for loving you I’d have died from a soldier’s despair,

Fifty years quickly flowed by but for those memories there,

My eyes are heavy now after waking for half an hour or so,

I pray I sleep now that those dreams came by a while ago,

I’ll search for you to hold my hand perhaps the other you too,

I love you my beautiful angel, don’t be jealous for she is you.

The end, By Pat. I love you baby,

So many challenges have befallen my long life,

But always beyond a hurdle is my wonderful wife,

Her beauty has taken my breath every single day,

Her eyes ignite a desire within my aged self to play,

I’ve searched for words significantly strong to say,

So desperately I want her to feel how I feel each day,

Each and every day I have been moved by her smile,

Beyond a smile returned that makes it all worthwhile,

Spoken words pale when spoken of loving her so,

Expressions of love aren’t enough for her to know,

That she is the light that awakened life within me,

I became a better man in hope that she would see,

She finds joy in the smallest things we’d see around,

Delight within her soul delights me also I have found,

Losses I’ve known are minimized by her soft desire,

Gentleness of her soul is offset by her sexual fire,

Never in my life has there been hesitation to speak,

Yet in her presence normal love words seem weak,

As my last breath draws near I’ll pray she is near,

To place my tired hand at rest in hers removes fear.

The end I love you Patti

I wonder how many seasons remain to be before,

Time flows like a cascading river alive with a roar,

So quickly it runs that a moment lost is forever gone,

But the flow can’t remove memories we dream upon,

So many memories are of loving such a beautiful you,

Time rivers keep pushing time to flow quickly through,

Into the oceans of time our lost moments have flowed,

When distant and far away time consumes the road,

Boundaries of time can only change by love’s need,

As I close my eyes my psyche gives way with speed,

Deep breathe presents night as a youthful you I find,

Time has no presence or boundaries inside my mind,

My consciousness knows the other yet he does not,

For he has no restraints of time in a place I’ve forgot,

In this place within my mind……so many you’s dwell,

Owned by me this place when time told a teller’s tale,

Asleep at twenty five and to awaken at seventy two,

A mysterious journey filled me with memories of you,

Time crept across my life to leave a worn man behind,

So many memories of loving you put inside my mind,

Deep breathe presents light as a youthful you I find,

Age has escaped this angel, it’s not that I am blind,

I am stricken then by your beauty be it now or then,

Memories of loving you return me to a time of when,

That when is when I realized, “you” memories are real,

The pounding within my chest is meant for me to feel,

Love’s sweet fragrance creates ownership of my mind,

I fell in love as I flew to heaven with an angel confined,

Memories mixed with dreams has allowed me to be,

To be in love with only one in my timeline of happily,

To escape bindings of time to find you never change,

Is wonderful to my heart and mind if not a bit strange,

Seasons blend instead of changing as time fades,

Age often masks reality or is it that time invades,

So quickly time moves and once gone we admit so,

And a teardrop gently moves down my face to show,

The pain brought by times cruel ways to we so hard,

I’ve pushed the boundaries of time without regard,

To health or realities of time forcing age’s advance,

Your beauty still mesmerizes leaving me in a trance,

Times advance forced free a tear racing down my face,

Reality’s way saddens me allowing time to freely race,

The greatest joy of my life is you in spite of all my pain,

If captured by time’s end, forever my love will remain.

The end. I love you my beautiful little girl

As time slips through my fingertips I need not ask do you love me,

I fell into a break in time, in search of more, but time,’ I couldn’t see,

I pray there’s time for everything to be done that I have failed to do,

Sacrifice needn’t be shown when for love, I’m sorry I’ve failed you,

I hope there’s time for all I haven’t done to show you undying love,

Once when I threw love in a bottle I was praying to the Lord above,

Remembering those times of extreme hardship awakens thought,

Thoughts laced with memories of when your love was all I sought,

From a riverboat bow under enemy fire I released a message to you,

A poem of undying love stuffed inside a bottle of the deepest blue,

Something I had to do as I feared escape would never come to be,

Fear weaved a way through my exhausted faith to overwhelm me,

Time has sped through my life so quickly I near dissolution’s shore,

My love again overwhelms every thought I have as I need you more,

I’ve chosen paths for me far more often than those chosen for you,

Shame instills sensations of pain as I find there’s little I can now do,

Overtaken by time’s lacking I seek a way to say what I have missed,

There’s many opportunities past when your lips I should have kissed,

Time’s vapor remains for too long as it touts me in a foggy vapor trail,

Self made burdens are painful upon self, of Irish Texas Indian male,

What stains have I rendered upon self brought by selfishness inside,

My existence’ reality seems unknown to all and for this I have cried,

The halt of such known untrue fact, would come when for you I die,

Or in attempt to resurrect your beautiful life force we join souls to fly,

Truly I’d throw my being beneath your feet upon poisonous danger,

So overfilled with love is this being of man I’d tell it to any stranger,

As time’s extreme passing of our time becomes past vapor I weep,

If but a passing starlit memory could be held in my heart to keep,

Keep reality’s motion rather than remember, I’d linger in your love,

For your love knows nothing ill fitting instead surrounds like a glove,

I have been said recipient of golden love for half a century or more,

A tinder kiss, “I love you” heard, “I love you” returned, this, I live for.

The end, for Patti by Pat. 02/14/2020

I love you my beautiful angel

I understand the depth of infinity as it has leapt from my heart,

Each threshold I’ve endured or crossed resulted of you in part,

Love nestled deep within my soul since I was a teen was of you,

To be received love must erupt outward in each direction too,

For direction the heart must follow the lead that love’s gift gives,

Emotions felt because of love will guide the heart while love lives,

Forever you have been my guiding light as my eyes seek you out,

Love creates a void filled only by the one who can remove doubt,

Love creates a melody of sorts that elevate in heavenly chords,

As I drift to heavenly tunes I seek a kiss from the one I drift towards,

The weight of the world has faded away as I pull you close to dance,

It’s you and only you that I wish to hold near when I seek romance,

Many events of love have transpired in fifty years of loving you,

Prior to our marriage when I would come home you always knew,

While working in Dallas I’d pray to see you if only a moment’s wave,

The excitement I knew and felt from just your smile oh how I’d rave,

There is magic in love far beyond what is given by luck or chance,

Our first kiss of love said “I love you” but it did put me into a trance,

No word was spoken as our lips didn’t part for ten minutes or more,

Yet I knew you loved me as I had said I love you many times before,

I knew everything of you and you knew everything I had ever done,

That’s the way it must be to prevent not knowing if you are the one,

Secrets destroy vows and create lost love as lie’s are created in woe,

Faith in your lover’s word is critical for love within the heart to grow,

She must believe she’s the one as he too must believe what’s said,

I remember knowing you loved me as war’s fear danced in my head,

The magic of love flowed in my veins as your image became a vision,

At times I could feel your touch while poses of love I would envision,

Many things of love must be combined to enjoy every moment given,

Lovers must realize no person is perfect so wrongs must be forgiven,

But Patti my little angel when you had guilt it was for what I wanted,

Love grows with age and each year it grows, it’s to never be daunted,

I love you beyond infinity yet love leaps from my heart each day,

With you at my side the difficult times seem to become child’s play,

I have tingle sensations inside my heart the same as a teenage boy,

To kiss your lips and to say “I love you” still fills my heart with joy.

The end. For Patti from Pat

My heart filled with pride as I watched you in the room,

Smiling sweetly with lips the color of a red rose in bloom,

The delight in your face lifted my spirit to a point above,

A tingle in my heart swelled large with even more love,

A tear fell from my eye creating a trace of love on my face,

Thoughts of loving you created a pulse rate of rapid pace,

As I closed my eyes to contemplate loving you for so long,

I drifted from party attendee to a man with a love so strong,

My heart’s pulse won’t slow until accompaniment of you,

It’s been such as this since our fifty five year love was new,

A voice awakens me from my love trance of you to be aware,

My sister wants to say how young you look standing there,

Do I reveal the spell of you I’ve been under since first sight,

How every day I await darkness to enjoy loving you at night,

As fading sunlight kisses darkness hello I await kissing you,

Your touch indicates a nearness of flesh that’s a lover’s cue,

Lonely roads I walked long ago seemed so narrow and long,

I’ll be the first to admit your love made this young man strong,

And now I find you across the room creating a joyful harmony,

The surround of you glows of God’s touch in a love symphony,

If I just sit here loving you will creation feel all I am within?

Touch my hand to awaken me before dreams can begin,

The reality of you shall overcome a dream as I know well,

Take my heart I implore as I submit what I am to your spell,

Your face and stature glows of heaven’s beauty to be seen,

I have the perfect surname as I prayed you’d be my queen,

I surrender my life to you, I will love you for eternity and on,

I promise the world will know of loving you before I’m gone.

The end, for Patti from Pat. December 22, 2019