If the world began to crumble as the end came near,

First concern would be for you, creating a deep fear,

As I frantically search, I know my heart would beat so,

Deep into fears desperation I’d be, every where I’d go,

As our eyes meet I realize you’re okay and I run to you,

Somehow your eyes comfort me as they always do,

The beauty deep within your being overwhelms me,

An angel’s inner beauty, delivers waves you can’t see,

The way you looked at me without saying a word,

Said so much to me yet every word was unheard,

With a prayer and faith the end can be postponed,

The pains once inflicted still remain to be atoned,

I dream of you on the other side of a warrior’s mind,

Memories etched so deep they are seen by the blind,

Aflame inside I cry in fear you are gone upon my return,

In a dream of you in the other side of my mind…I burn,

Awaken me I cry as loud as my sleeping vocal can yell,

I shake internally without movement while under a spell,

After all this time soldiers still weep and soldiers dwell,

Sometimes upon waking I know the scent of war’s smell,

Your touch pulls me from the downward spin I’m in,

Telling me you love me without hearing words begin,

Loving you forever has been easy as forever goes by,

Time doesn’t know slow but advances enough to fly,

The fear of losing you was far greater than war’s fear,

When I returned from war a Texas angel made it clear,

Telling me to go out that night and for forever more,

I knew she loved me, I love her, even more than before.

The end. By Pat for Patti. I love you 12/13/2019

A sweet hello fell from your lips to awaken me unto you,

No better joy is there in my life even those from the taboo,

You’ve awakened my mind to become aware of lovin’ too,

Just you, only you, could make me feel like you always do,

A minute or two is all it took to move my heart in many ways,

It’s easy to love you as I found just after a few autumn days,

Had fall begun or am I confused because that’s how it stays,

To say I fell in fall doesn’t sound perplexing if leaving a haze,

I’ve loved you for forever so long, so long and strong it’s so,

I have loved you you know it’s true, it’s so, I do pray you know,

My heart is given to you and I try so much to let my love show,

I’ve an oddity of sorts its true, I love you so much I might glow.

The end. To Patti, from Pat. I love you Patti

As Mother Nature cried out into a painful night of loss,

Young warriors of the US tried to carry her heavy cross,

Connoisseurs without taste judge those drafted to fight,

Heavy fog saturates the field diminishing what little light

In the silence of the night I dream again to pull you near,

So tender is the mind heard sigh of you setting aside fear,

The night awakens love felt desires that are yet ever strong,

Teenage desires invade my being but they feel to be lifelong,

As my flesh tingles with sensations of love I feel more desire,,

To love you is to desire you thus explaining this lust-long fire,

My armor in my armoire awaits my donning of such one day,

Eternally at your side I’ll be never to leave you or wither away.

The end, to Patti, the one I love eternally. Forever hers.

A heavy sigh falls from my lips as I feel myself surrender to you,

Sweet surrender has left me as vulnerable as the morning dew,

As morning sun collects the dew along with the essence of me,

You accept my love as it penetrates the air that we cannot see,

Love is felt traveling though the air as it engulfs my every fiber,

Tingling sensations that grow to become love’s flaming ember,

Small needles of love’s delight that grow as they force through,

Should the blood within your frame have need I give all to you,

You found me when I found you the change in me was profound,

Manhood overtook the boy it seems I was improvement bound,

The way you look, the way you look at me put feelings in the air,

A deep gasp took in the air of an “air of love” as I fell right there,

The look on your face as I floundered in the room trying to speak,

Did I say that I love you on first sight or did I appear to be weak,

As I became the morning dew the beauty of you collected me in,

Vaporous molecules of me awaiting for your love of me to begin,

Five decades plus five years didn’t move in step with Father Time,

I awaken each morning in prayer asking for more time in a rhyme,

Rhyming prayers of time asking for more time to spend loving you,

After all these years angel you’re still beautiful all the way through,

Still I sigh upon seeing nudity of you and I find it very hard to speak,

Whispers flowing across my stuttering lips is part of your mystique,

I walk through a mysterious fog of my own creation inside my mind,

Touch of you woke essence of me to become a part of you entwined,

Love is felt traveling though the air as it engulfs the two of us,

Tingling sensations that state our love has become superfluous,

Small needles of loving delight are flowing in full through we two,

Everything in flow within my frame says I’ll always be loving you.

The end, by Pat for Patti, dedicated to Patti, November 29, 2019

To see you is to love you is to give my life to you forevermore,

Sensations such escaped my heart as I heard my soul implore,

Your lips so red tease lust within my loins to beg for a touch,

It has been this way since we first met of how I beg for such,

It’s not a leash as I’ve begged to be he that’s near your sway,

I have watched a twinkle in your eyes put a spark into the day,

In little boy dreams as I became a teen I dreamed a bit of lust,

Dreams I didn’t understand yet somehow I saw your full bust,

In that dream prior to my dreams of sex you awoke “it” in me,

“It” stood tall and “it” stood proud yet I’m happy “it” can’t plea,

I can imagine of what would transpire for just a little titty peek,

Do I mean a quick peek of or a tiny titty to see of what I speak,

Dreams of love and being in love had you in every dream too,

Lust, loving, and you or should I say lust, love, and loving you,

How is it I knew you then yet I know it was you in my dreams,

The touch of your flesh and your sexiness was there it seems,

So many times excitement came as sleep approached me,

It’s that I would see you soon even if in a dream you I’d see,

Fulfillment came unto me and as well you too felt the same,

I felt you too, felt it too, even when I was the enemy’s game,

Nights I cried in fear so afraid I would lose you in my death,

It’s not a fear of death but to lose you if with my final breath,

I didn’t know your love ‘til twenty but too somehow before,

Strange is love of heart and soul yet I had no need to explore,

For I have loved you since I was eighteen so I never had need,

I felt you too loved me too but fear cautioned you from speed,

The draft board call changed so much yet delivered me to you,

All the events of being called plus my discharge was right too,

Each movement of your butt for fifty years has thrilled me through,

Your sparkling eyes ignite my sparks to uplift me when I’m blue,

Breasts so full and beautiful even as a senior your breasts so tease,

What I like best of your sexiness is how you’re still sexy with ease,

I love you Patti with all my heart but it doesn’t effect how I see,

My taste in women is pure and still the same if you must test me,

For my vision is still selective of beauty although someday to fail,

A part that’s not failing is how I sense the horniness in your smell,

I must sleep now and slip away to love you in a dreamland place,

I’ll walk beaches called “Diamond Dust Shores” but it’s just a trace,

My dreams seem so very real especially when you kiss my lips,

Oddities may occur in said dreams such as you give me sex tips,

You’ve ignited my dimming flame to brighten beyond a Star,

If possible in the events of life you’re a movie star by so far,

My heart’s pace is quickening even in dreams of your touch,

Only you can do such to me because, “I love you so much”.

The end, by Pat for Patti.

I love you beautiful angel!

I knew disappointment so deeply when taken far away,

To love as a man had been sewn deep inside of me to stay,

And when I wake the greatest secret I keep remains to be hid,

I look backwards in time to find a remnant of something we did,

From that remnant of a past with you I find reason to remain,

A quick moment in time is all that I need, be it a whispered refrain,

Drafted away from all that I know to be trained in combat by hand,

I’ll never be one nor will I ever be whole though I try to understand,

Troublesome nights in a jungle so far away beneath a dark sky,

Were filled with lonely sounds of a dying soldier’s haunting cry,

And the country I love has spit upon the uniform I wear to fight,

Hate me for being drafted yet hate the draft doesn’t sound right,

I would carry most any American upon my back as my final deed,

With my broken heart pushing life blood to my muscles I will bleed,

My bullet riddled body protects his that he may spit upon me again,

And when they lay me to rest I will pray they are forgiven for their sin,

But I prayed to not be buried with broken dreams inside my soul,

Told God I would endure anything to fulfill my young life’s goal,

On my final leave to home I was going to ask for your hand at last,

From the first day home it seemed as if my fate had been cast,

For thirty days and nights despair found me no matter where,

The things I did were distractions from you to show I didn’t care,

One person understood the heartbreak America laid at my feet,

But he was gone and at night I would often jog to your street,

My sisters and friends would entertain me as best they could,

No matter what done my heart returned to you as it always would,

Drinks, dates, parties or girls were sought by me this time around,

My only desire was to be with you to share the love I felt we found,

Desperately I wanted to be with you yet no letters and now, no you,

My heart belonged to you but after a year I didn’t know what to do,

Since I last kissed your lips I served hazardous duty in lonely surround,

The slightest thought of you brought teardrops and a familiar sound,

Returned to duty overseas as loneliness overwhelmed my frame,

No letters from you or others back home had give me a nickname,

“No Mail Pat” was funny to the post office crew but made me blue,

Prayers of departure were answered suddenly without even a clue,

As quickly as I prayed to be reunited with you everything changed,

How can fate allow two souls so in love to become the estranged,

As I ran upon the enemy’s soil they gave chase until I was done,

Over three weeks I would be tested and show you’re still the one,

To be with you again I would do anything, then anything came to be,

Detainment and abuse so horribly bad that I actually couldn’t see,

Somehow someway a love so deep encapsulated me from death,

Each time I teetered upon the edge you encouraged my fading breath,

In but a year I captured ten years of age upon my frame, face, and hair,

The chiseled frame I had put upon myself shrank until barely there,

I had a fear of darkness from nights in combats theater of finality,

Trumpet sounds were heard as angels introduce a teenage fatality,

Fall into my unconscious arms for I await reunion of mated souls,

Retrieve my dying frame from becoming a corpse for burning coals,

A sadness calls and calls for my heart yet you appear to be real,

In my tormented mind are you an appearance that I touch and feel?

Through prayer and faith I survived to be released to men over there,

Waiting with ambulance and men to take me away to somewhere,

Joy and rejoice to be free as drugs ease the pain but not of my heart,

Clean sheets and a place to lay my filthy head improved me in part,

IV drips to replenish needed fluids awakened my mind to only you,

Surgeries to repair me and psychiatric care to repair my state of blue,

Everything you are to me is make believe in their belief of how I am,

Three months of care was needed for my discharge although a scam,

In a masquerade to hide who I am I pretended to believe to go home,

Said loving you was generated by war and your love was un-shown,

Hush my mind, close your eyes to the protestors signs of blaring hate,

They stand in protest of draft yet hate we drafted chosen by war’s fate,

The ribbons I wore torn from my chest by a protestors hateful way,

I board the bus to go home with two years of my life taken away,

Kisses in dreams carry me away to board the plane home today,

My love for you will always be with me no matter what shrinks say,

You may love another, my heart cried so loud it echoed deep inside,

On a long ago night your kiss goodbye felt so much like love I cried,

Home at last and moving away with all hope of seeing you gone,

A month of teardrops perhaps moving is best for me to move on,

My life of you has always been the right moment at the right time,

In front of my home, packed and ready to drive all became sublime,

An angel topped the hill and reignited every flame or fire deep inside,

No longer will I walk alone in the dark as lonely fears now subside,

Had she worn wings no more beautiful could the appearance be,

As if she escaped the night to bring a gorgeous sunrise for me,

Her red lips appear to be those sculpted by a great artists hand,

So absurd my chosen words are for God is the artist in command,

Two years of make believe love appearing in dreams I created,

May come to life, to be real, to be mine, to at last be celebrated,

Once again our minds link as if absent time has fallen through,

Our first spoken word to the other are the very same words too,

“Why didn’t you write me?” erased the heartbreak of two years,

This brief moment in time has released to the heavens my tears,

Her mother had taken my letters unknown to her lonely heart,

We were the same now I understand the pain tearing me apart,

A promise made to return to you in six months woke my mind,

It was Friday the first week in November, look and you will find,

Exactly a year latter we were joined to be one yet already we were,

A joining of souls took place when we first met and I made an offer,

When your schooling is through I’ll give my life and heart to you,

Spoken true you stole my heart although you were too young too,

Three years earlier we had met when those things took place,

And this day I knew I would return to marry that beautiful face,

Throughout our marriage round and round in circles we’ve danced,

Long ago I said don’t leave love on the dance floor for its enhanced,

For a moment think back and realize 11-7 I promised I’d return to stay,

And a year later on 11-7 I promised in a vow that I’d never go away,

For over fifty four years my love has intensified every day for you,

Tell me true love please let me hear if your heart feels that way too,

Your beautiful form and lack of age is a blessing unknown for most,

First married your too young sway was perfect for the west coast,

While you’ve been dreaming I’ve spooned with an angel to sleep,

I feel I must as love controls my soul and I promised her life to keep,

At times I’ve entered the fray alone to pull you from dangers way,

No thought of retreat entered my mind but instead to save the day,

Every physical pain I’ve known though they are far too many to know,

Couldn’t be enough to change or scare my heart influencing me to go,

I keep bleeding love when I bleed yet you regenerate love beyond norm,

Loving you grows more every day yet I’ve bled enough to lose form,

Footprints in the snow or those in the sand are symbolic of we two,

So long we’re adjoined shadows can’t part to separate me from you,

My love goes with you just like the shoreline joins the sand and sea,

Our love forms a timeline of life bond to never separate you and me,

I want to shine in your heart evermore as I was broken once before,

America threw me away after I fought her war only you gave me more,

A fear of darkness shakes my core to cry for departed teenage men,

The things and food thrown on my uniform by protestors back then,

PTSD makes me cry as forgetting won’t come but remember stays,

And you wake my eyes to an angels glee to brighten unhappy days,

Your hand in mine and mine in yours pull me from the fray of hell,

Sexiness fills your form unknown to you yet your body does it well,

I’ll be the first to kneel at your side when you fall and last to stand,

If you need me to hold you or kiss the boo boo away take my hand,

What the draft took away affected you too, now I do understand,

I’ll love you forever and you me, our love has become truly grand,

My hands now shake as age and war takes dues most every day,

Yet I look forward to waking with you to hear the first thing you say,

And touch your breasts as I place kisses on your face that’s not old,

I’m dancing in heaven with thoughts of celebrating our years of gold.

The end. For Patti by Pat.

49th anniversary poem