What kind of man am I to let events of life take control,

Draft time warriors bound by law to fight or go on patrol,

The next time I’d see you I’d worry if you had forgotten me,

You’d know my name but deny loves presence could be,

A haunting of my soul had transpired to effect how I feel,

Sexual thoughts of beautiful you increased your appeal,

It didn’t mean a thing unless you’d wait my return from war,

There’s no other body or nobody I could ever want more,

There’s something that is the sum of things I’d fight for,

The color of your hair or the color it was the time before,

You’re beautiful then but more beautiful each time I see,

The perkiness of your sweet lips elevates a part of me,

I would look into your eyes so quickly it was never enough,

I was mesmerized as my pupils absorbed all of your stuff,

In the shelter of your arms I had become the leader of all,

While in the surround of your aura I can not falter or fall,

It seems you kissed my lips and quickly ran away from me,

Said I love you now I’m aghast in wonderment can’t you see,

Can’t you see the pain in my eyes or tears beginning to start,

I yelled that aloud in my head since I was afraid you’d part,

Although once I knew darkness as a castaway of chance,

Never did my heart falter with sad beats of happenstance,

Love goes on forever to mystify minds with mystery hearts,

In a far off land she cried wondering if he was blown apart,

Could have sworn I once heard you’d cried for me the same,

I had to clear my head before returning to give you my name,

When you last held me I had cried afraid my time had expired,

Just yesterday I thought thoughts of such now I am retired,

Fifty years have passed us by while love blessed us whole,

Seems I’ve loved you for so long and so much you’re my soul,

All along the distant shore wayward loves cast out the blame,

Can’t they hear broken hearted lovers sing out much the same,

Yet you and I have passed so many we’ve known to sink away,

A gift given you by me and gifted me by you was love each day,

Every remaining moment should be shared in love from within,

Feelings of love grow every day for you as you’re where I begin.

The end. By Pat for Patti

I had a pain an awful pain that pierced my heart through,

It was a dreadful time long ago when I felt I had lost you,

Heartbreak tears flowed from a broken love within my soul,

Sensations of electricity rushed away in heartbreaks role,

Though I had been struggling inside while the war raged on,

Preparation for a loss unknown is impossible until it is gone,

Wonderfully I still feel your lips and still I taste your tears salt,

The pain I feel has convinced the being within that I’m at fault,

As I write of heartbreak and the wonders of love in a rhyme,

I jump from current to past times as the pain weaves time,

So deep it felt physical truth be told I know it’s mostly mind,

Wish I were on the outside looking in perhaps answers I’d find,

While in war’s fury your believed love carried this man through,

To depart that place on wings not mine is a blessing that I flew,

A simple man in love finds separation too difficult to grasp,

Two months in desperation created a letter as my final gasp,

Still I can touch your hair with tender strokes of my hand,

Stains of draining ink appear when pens make a last stand,

Each breath I take while in this writers realm dusted in pain,

Has the essence of your exhausted breath even in the rain,

Diamonds purchased create love’s rush to flow through in full,

Yet they cut flesh with a hardness that’s unknown to any tool,

As love grows it seems impossible for it to destroy completely,

Yet the realization that it’s gone tears through flesh so slowly,

Hope is more than a descriptive word its how love can remain,

Hope resurrected my love’s continuance although still in pain,

My letter begs friendship but unknown to you I’ll love from afar,

At night in my world of darkness you’ll be my lone shining star,

There’s an emptiness that seems to roar with sound unheard,

Every time I lay my head down to sleep you are my final word,

During the day thoughts of you insert themselves to be known,

Unintentional memories is an odd description but it’s my own,

How best describes my heart forcing my mind to think of you,

No matter the topic or purpose my mind strays to become blue,

Intensity of heartbreak must be equivalent to passions extremes,

Yet a million hearts or more couldn’t absorb the intensity it seems,

Oh pretty Patti I should have known narcotics of love is strong,

So deeply in love with such a beauty is a place I didn’t belong,

It’s the way you would look at me or how you looked walking,

I absorbed everything you said as I loved how you look talking,

Every nuance of you effected my being as you filled my soul,

If someday you should read this rhyme of forced warriors role,

The power of love’s vivacity has left me eternally enamored,

Every thought every moment even air demands I’m armored,

I have known the extremes of life too soon for a young man,

Every full moon of love I’ve given you along with all that I am,

At the end of Earth I’ve dwelled as heartache created despair,

A heart that use to race with love’s angst is now beyond repair,

My hands shake with too much alcohols poisonous inflection,

As my heart struggles to beat from love’s opposite affliction,

Voices carry into my room as I can hear whispers unheard before,

Spoken of me in wonder asking why I’m not the same anymore,

A month has passed since I typed my last letter begging to you,

I asked forgiveness for my love stricken words and what can I do,

Two corners of the room are filled with wads of paper and words,

The words are written on the waste paper plus there’s potsherds,

The risks I take now are real because of what soldiers have to do,

Though I’m a sailor I’ll never know the seas or the oceans blue,

I’ve trained to hide and go where others have failed or can’t go,

Once I was danger now I’m in danger as the un-alert grow slow,

And yet my eyes only see beautiful you no matter when or where,

Love hasn’t grown cold nor have I grown old it’s just the despair,

Returned my heart to her in sweet surrender as with her I belong,

Though she may not love me I feel better loving her even if wrong,

Those feelings back then placed me in dangers way every day,

The inability to find her the next time home made it hard to stay,

Prayers mixed with feelings of defeat to create confusion of mind,

Upon my return to my next mission I may as well have been blind,

My love for you is more intense today than days of my past,

When you were fourteen I told you that my love would last,

Yet I still feel that pain at times for reasons I’ll never understand,

When you ask why I cry, just give me a kiss and hold my hand.

The end by Pat

To think of you is in itself a gift worthy, praising our Lord,

So many ecstatic memories held that I feel I am a horde,

She’s worthy to be held tight as is precious miner’s gold,

As the love miner I will release her preciousness of my hold,

I shall share with the world this unheard of beauty in glow,

Already I feel honored just to be the man that’s in the know,

Precious are enraptured journeys into her heart’s expressions,

Of her life experiences only I have enjoyed true love sessions,

And she glows of embellished love that’s given freely to me,

To share of her heart enriches me so that I feel I’m in ecstasy,

Nights are of splendor beneath sheets that display her form,

Her body is still reactive with teenage needs beyond the norm,

Once again an awaking not of the morning but of the knight,

Yes it’s of he who is the knight that protects her from fright,

My life I have given to her preciousness to flood with my love,

When departure arrives I pray entry is hand in hand to above.

The end, to Patti the love of my life. I love you

By Pat

Standing in the falling rain with no sunshine anywhere around,

Staying in the only shade from rain I’m in sync with the sound,

Raindrops make magic sounds that feel like love should be near,

Isn’t it funny how everything I do makes we wish you were here,

And when you come walking towards me from the setting sun,

The sun behind your head glows to highlight you as a holy one,

Come hold my hand and lean against me as I hide from the rain,

Isn’t this a shiny day when your in my hold, I no longer feel pain,

Closed my eyes for a moment or two to awaken to a sunshine day,

I can feel your love in the silence of the moment with nothing to say,

To feel your breath upon my chest is a miracle I can never repay,

So many times the end has drawn near to depart so we can play,

Standing in the sunshine with you I thank God for every moment,

I want Him to know that I stand in His glory to escape the torment,

To be sent into your arms every time desperation came near to be,

The greatest gift (you) God could give a man He has given to me.

The end, by Pat for Patti

Standing in the light of the moon I’d share thoughts of you,

There was no one else there so it was a strange thing to do,

Swore I’d never feel this way standing here wishing on a star,

With each breath of air taken in I smell your hair from so far,

Two steps left taken slow to remain lit in the light of the moon,

Diamond rings written true came from my heart a bit too soon,

A slow waltz with you in my arms absent your beautiful frame,

Although you are unseen tonight I can feel of you just the same,

The spotlight of the moon moves slow yet so soon it will leave,

There’s a place of love in hearts belonging to all who believe,

In the light of tonight’s moon I swoon over you just for a dance,

My heart’s control over thoughts has put my mind in a trance,

As I look into God’s beautiful night sky I wonder where you are,

There’s not a diamond so grand that shines like a night star,

And of you there’s nothing compared to your beautiful eyes,

Sensations of love overwhelmed me beneath heavenly skies,

Thoughts of old and thoughts of new are still filled with you,

Memories of long ago can still inflict loneliness of deep blue,

The hands of time have rushed the moon to pass too soon,

Though I’m aged and worn for you I’ll try and stop the moon,

To hold you in my arms fulfills dreams of long ago and now,

Last night I wished upon an early star yet you knew somehow,

In the light of the moon I held you near and kissed lips so sweet,

Love of my heart, light of my life, you’ve made my life complete.

The end. For Patti by Pat

Your face reflected in my thoughts has risen to my mind once again,

No substitute or sensation has brought more than the feelings within,

Though you’re not truly here I see your face so clear I feel your breath,

My heart and mind knows my need so desperately as I’m near death,

Concrete covered with my waste and seeping blood is no comfort,

I’ve traced your name on the floor but liquid in flow makes it distort,

It’s a wonderful life I’ve lived as I’ve had great thoughts of loving you,

Can’t go home, don’t fly away tired spirit, this is possible to live through,

Dreams of kisses and love have pierced my mind so deeply I live,

Breathe deep and exhale upon my neck so soft that I might relive,

That moment not long ago yet within eternities grasp it now seems,

Wickedness fills the air of tortuous beasts that destroy my dreams,

At desperation’s door I was retrieved before falling off the end,

Your kisses upon my torn lip brought lift to my soul once again,

Only I saw you here to save me before I faded into the darkness,

There’s an open door at heaven’s gate to be welcomed by holiness,

Cold sweats have flushed the nasty residual from under my skin,

I’ve turned the other cheek to ignite life anew with this I can win,

Another dream of a time long ago when afflicted by their hate,

It’s sad that such darkness returns so much I can still relate,

Your face reflected in my thoughts made it possible for me to win,

No substitute or sensation brought more than those feelings within,

Though you weren’t truly there I’d see your face and feel your kiss,

My heart knew my need was your love, I pray you remember this.

The end, by Pat for Patti